too soon.

you are so cute.
i am excited to go back and see you and every one
but quite frankly i wouldn't mind staying a little longer haha.
im not ready to go back to the real life of school and work. [and
paying for everything again] but i guess i don't really have a choice huh.

i am definitely thrilled that we have class together, such a blessing!
can't wait to walk to class every other morning :)

5 days till i see your beautiful face, or are you coming on the 4th since you
don't have class tuesday?! loove love love you.
hope you had a wonderful christmas my love.

almost there.

dearest twin;
i am counting down the days til we meet.....6 days.
i literally can't wait!!! esp. for our tswift, the script, and whatever else shower singing seshs. and watching the last song. finalllly. and for ucor with you! ahhh so many things to look forward to.

i miss you sososo much :)
we've made it 3 weeks, here's to 1 more! (ish)
lovelovelove you H!
with <3, C

Goodluck Cbaby.

just wanted to wish you goodluck on your final today as
well as your finals tomorrow!

i trust that you will do great and pray that God will help you
stay clam and focused as you take your tests. remember to stop
every once in a while and just breathe. try not to let the stress
of everything overcome you. i am here for you and so is the lord!

i know you will do great, and if not who  cares!! hah
sad that tonight is our last night together :( i will miss you
dearly and i can't even comprehend being away for more than
a week. deaaar lordy this will be weird. heres to a wonderful
break and a fabulous christmas and new years! wishing you
the best today, tomorrow, and the rest of the week.

all my love to you.
ps. keep me updated during break!

thankful for you.

i miss you i miss you i miss you.
one more time?.....i miss you.

that thanksgiving post made me very thankful and hit right on
about how i feel. i love being home but whether i am home or at
the dorms im always missing one or the other its crazy, but i love it.
it makes the time more valuable and more meaningful.

i can't wait to see you and hear about your week at home.
mine is going well you know i can't complain i got exactly
what i wanted but still theres something so different about my
times at home now. i hate to say it all revolves around him but it does.
it sucks cause im sick of talking about it so much and for running your
guys ears off but i can never stop myself. i just want to replay this one day
for you so you can see how im an immature baby and screw things up.

so it's wednesday and i go see HP with the fam [which i totally fall asleep
in 203204 times cause i was dead from the night before] but after that we go
to dinner and eric tells me his sister got in an accident. i love his sister, like honestly
love her so of course im worried. so i reply "omg ill be right there dont worry it's
all going to be okay" something along those lines. so i get home and rush over to
his house. i get there and see him and his mom and i know they are scared i can
see it in their eyes. to make the story short she is totally fine just bruised and sore
and same with her friends in the car. the car is totaled thanks to some douche who
was driving without a license or insurance. so this whole time i was there i was just
helping prepare stuff for thanksgiving at their house tomorrow so that his mom could
go to the hospital. then somehow we end up talking on the couch hes telling me about
how stressful his life is and how he feels bad for his parents and all the money etc.
and i tell him about mine how its going to be hard at thanksgiving with the recent
loss of my grandpa [gramps] and start tearing up and just how its been hard for me
to have to appear happy all the time and have to try to be happy and have to tell
myself to be strong. and of course whenever i cry i get what ive been wanting all along.
i finally see him tenderness he wraps his arms around me, wipes my tears, tells me im ok,
and kisses my face. WHY IS IT ONLY PERFECT WHEN I CRY!

now later we were making the beds for the girls to sleep on. i noticed that he took down these
three notes i wrote him that are right by his head on his bed that he would read before sleep
and in an instant hurt and anger start. [heres when i screw up and look like an idiot] soo then
i realize all these notes and letters ive written him are in this bag by his desk instead of this drawer
they were in. apparently he said he took em down the night before after i gave him the ring he gave
me for my birthday back [i wish i didnt its my favorite but i wanted to be dramatic and hopefully see
him beg me not to give it to him cause im dumb] so yaaa i started taking down all the pictures and
drawings and everything of me even though he told me not to. now i wish i didnt cause theres little
to no proof of me in his room to remind him. it sucks. i always do these idiot moves that i totally regret
when i almosst always dont get the reaction i want. so we fought about it but were fine.

idkkkk why im an idiot and this is so long im sorry its just hard when i see him its hard to hold back
and not hold his hand or snugggle and stuff like that. he says its hard for him too but he knows he cant
do them in order to move on so i tell him why is he resisting whats on his heart and to follow his heart.
and he tells me his heart is taking him two directions.

what the effffff just choose me already.
but nooo.

man im a fool
and im sorry for making u read this.
i feel pathetic and i miss you and
im sorry i talk about him all the time.

im just crazy in the head.

snowww :)

some pictures from today!

love twin C

hi, im stupid.

one. ummm so i woke up the art teacher emailed me back and basically told me there was still an opening in the other art class [the one im already enrolled in] i was like yesss i realize that BUT i dont want that one lady that's why i fricken emailed you in the first place.

two. checked my schedule and im enrolled in the 4:00pm-5:20pm english class on T,TH hellooo did i enter the wrong CRN or what the hell is wrong with me??!!!!! sooo i check and the other one that i was SUPPOSED to be in and THOUGHT i was going to be in is waitlisted and im like number 6 aka NO HOPE, for hope. soooooooo pretty much im taking a fricken class in the middle of the night on t,th what the frick.


worst schedule ever award goes to.....drum roll please.........



MEEEE, hope katheryn frankian.

ughhhh im upset at how stupid i am.
crap man.

on the bright side i suppose i wont have to take
the morning shift at work since i dont have class till
WAY late :) ughh kill me now.

love you.
thanks for listening to the rant.

frustraaaatiiionnnnn >:(

i need to vent to somebody, and even though this doesn't technically count as a legitimate person, that's okay. it's probably better that i'm not talking to a real person because they would probs get super annoyed at me.
I HATE MY DAMN PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i threw it on my bed about 80000 times in a row because i was so mad. first the outside speaker stops working COMPLETELY and now i can't send/receive text messages. let me correct that - i just got a text that was sent to me at 10:16 pm LAST NIGHT. cool, cell phone. REAL COOL.
another thing.....my freakin spanish homework is soooo dumb. i don't understand ANY of it. add to the fact that my spanish program freezes on me literally every 3 minutes, and i want to throw my computer at the wall and then step on it til it breaks in half.
i'm not done......i have a 4 page paper due on friday. did i mention that there is no rubric or parameters for this essay? HOW THE CRAP ARE WE SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT?!! i feel your pain, hope. it is so broad, and i could definitely go off topic easily.
i'm blasting tswift right now in my room cause victoria is in class haha. oh ps, the text i sent you that NEVER ACTUALLY SENT was that i found out where the legit taylor swift CD is.....in katie's car. i will hopefully get my paws on it soon and you can borrow it to get the extra songssss. SCORE. one good thing about today haha.
ok sorry for this.....had to release my pent up frustrations.
ps. so glad you have a blog now! maybe i'll get a tumblr now ;)
LOVEEEE.

chongaliscious dance moves.

:)

the climb.

the climb.

the lyrics for this rendition (original by miley cyrus) were inspired by none other than the glorious hill up to ashton hall.

hope has the lovely video of us singing it....and i use the term "singing" loosely.

enjoy :)

THE CLIMB : ASHTON STYLE

I can almost see it
That Hall we live in
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"just stop heavy breathing"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Like my calves are breaking
My strength is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another hill and
I'm always gonna wanna catch a ride
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to climb

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about who’s passing me by

It's the climb

The pain I'm facing
The incline I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not quitting

I may not know it
But my ass will show it
I'm not gonna slip down the hill, yeah
Just gonna keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

There's always gonna be another hill and
I'm always gonna wanna catch a ride
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to climb

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about who’s passing me by
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another hill and
I'm always gonna wanna catch a ride
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to climb

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about who’s passing me by
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

i have too much hw so im blogging instead.

that man kills me, glad i found someone to share the pain.
type one diabe-tes. its pronounced diabetes for peet sake!!

but yes i am looking forward to this new cd.
ashlee could be a whole cd herself! maybe ill bring
up some blank cd's so we can make so boomb music.
you better save a shower for me come tuesday.  :)

ah tonight don't even get my started.
i want to quit my job and get out of this dang
library where i have been cooped up literally all day
today, i've only been outside once! i love how it was
supposed to rain all week and it has yet to, seattle is
being nice to me right now :) better enjoy it while i can.

ahhh our favorite song, honestly love it.
now it's in my head...not cool -__-

love,
the girl who can't wait to get out of this dungeon!

oh and thanks for the prayers! i'll need em.

PS.....

.......the man who can't be moved by the script just came on my pandora.
it knows me so well ;)
"i'm not reeeaaaadddinnnnngggg! i'm not reeeeaaaaddinnggg yeah!"
:)

diabe-tes.

mmm love that diabe-tes. check your blood sugar, & check it often.
hahaha.

yikesss that fog sounds super creepy. luckily, it burned off today seeing as how beautiful is is outside! :)
i love our shower parties too! you are gettin me hooked on tswift! i'm going to try to make my mix cd on my other comp at home. expect some ashlee simpson!
i'm praying for you - this weekend is going to be so good for you, in a lot of ways. plus you get to eat in-n-out....jealous.
stokeddddd for tonight!
"please quit your job!" hahaha
loveeee to you
<3 C

just a thought.

just wanted to share how sometimes i get totally creeped
out walking to work in the morning because its always really
dark and cold. when there is a heavy layer of fog is even creepier.
this isn't even bad yet, i don't want to imagine walking there in the
winter during the pouring rain. maybe then i wont have the 7:30 am shift.
ahhh please. so yea that's pretty much it just wanted to say good morning :)
- hope.

on the same page.

totally know what you mean, she makes me feel like crap.
but hey, spring break we are going to have rockin bods!
so watch out boys...maybe my new body will win jake over :) haha
or i'll just stick to morrie haha, no ross for suuure ;) best dream of my life.
hands down. love it.

also love our shower parties every night and our new tswiftyy cd.
i'll definitely be blogging my feelings out to you this weekend as im gone
so far from you. im so nervous to see what happens with you know who.
but other than that i am ecstatic! and you should be too, im excited for you
to get time at home as well. lovin' you girl!

xo [twin h.]

feelin the burn.

jillian michaels is my worst nightmare.
it's only the first night i've done her workout and i can already tell how out of shape i am! ahh well it can only go up from here right?
here's to results! (and not feeling so guilty after eating that chocolate pudding and pumpkin pie...)
love twin C

WANTED.

the beginning.

this is the beginning of our blogging lives together :) so welcome.
here we will post entries of our lives, things we need to share, things that make
us laugh, things that make us cry, and good and bad fashion sightings.

this place will be whatever we want it to be.
most importantly a place where we can be ourselves.
so lets get this blog rolling, <3.

hope.